Maintain Your Miracle

On Monday, September 7 at 9:58 a.m., Superman and I welcomed our second son into the world, without emergency or complications. It was the promise we’d been waiting to manifest since 2018. (For those of you who may be new around here, go read “Forgiving God” to discover why Superman and I had to wait.)

Now, a little background about this pregnancy…

From the beginning, my doctor advised us that a Caesarean (C-section) would be the best option for delivery. Given the emergency scenario we encountered trying to naturally labor and deliver our first son, she thought it best to repeat the surgery. Although I wanted to try a vaginal delivery, I scheduled surgery for August 28th. However, as time passed and the surgery date neared, I finally talked to my doctor about wanting a vaginal delivery. To my surprise, she happily obliged! And so, my journey to naturally labor and deliver began. As I entered Week 37, I did everything I could, short of drinking castor oil, to instigate labor. I had some contractions but they never progressed. Weeks 38, 39 and 40, I repeated the same activities from Week 37 and had the same results. On my due date, September 1st, I went to my final doctor’s appointment. She informed me that she wouldn’t allow me to go past 41 weeks so we scheduled delivery for September 7th. I was sad that the outcome wasn’t what I’d hoped but grateful that the Lord had kept my baby and I’d get to meet my son soon.

Fast forward to the present…

During my first week postpartum, the pain from the surgery was intense. It was worst than what I remembered from my first C-section. One day I asked God, “How am I supposed to take care of my baby when I can barely get out of bed on my own? I waited so long for this baby and now I’m neglecting him because I’m not physically strong enough to be his Mommy!” I complained. Then, the Spirit corrected me. No, more like chin-checked me. He said, “I’m not required to perform miracles the same way, even if it’s similar to a miracle I’ve blessed you with before (i.e. giving birth to a child). You’re more focused on how you obtained the miracle, just be grateful for the miracle.” It was a hard reality check to receive but obviously needful.

A few days later the Spirit showed me that my feelings were less about my recovery and more about my expectations regarding my recovery. I’d expected my recovery to be less intense given all I’d endured to have this baby. I thought I‘d suffered enough and deserved a smooth recovery. Unfortunately, that mindset doesn’t consider the enemy’s interference. I realized that since the enemy couldn’t stop me from receiving my miracle, he intended to frustrate me with my miracle. To combat this, I had to:

  1. Keep my focus on Christ. I can’t allow my blessings to take God’s place in my life. because I need Him at the center of my life to maintain my miracle.

  2. Stop making excuses. Instead of complaining about what I don’t have, what I can’t do, or what I think I deserve, ask God for what I need to care for my miracle.

  3. Don’t sleep- spiritually. I need to remain spiritually strong so I don’t become ignorant or unaware of the enemy’s tactics so I can prevent him from interfering with my miracle.

Now that my baby is finally in my possession, I’m going to do everything that’s necessary to maintain my miracle. The enemy doesn’t stand a chance!

Kolanda Douglas4 Comments