Dear Satan...

Dear Satan, you’ve tried to discourage me over the last week. You’ve tried to convince me to focus on my expectations. You’ve tried to distract me from what really matters most when it comes to ministry, but my “Yes” still stands.

Fortunately, I’m at the point in my life where I don’t need to be taught that God has a purpose for me. I know that. I don’t need clarity about my calling or my gifts. I have it. And I don’t need to be convinced that my message is powerful. I believe it.

As a result, I’ve realized that the enemy hasn’t been attacking my consistency. I’ve become too disciplined and determined for that. Instead, he attacks my motivation. 

Since my social media fast in December 2020, I’ve been believing God for a great harvest. I told myself that consistency, clarity and creativity would open the doors I desired to be open. And now, the first quarter of 2022 is ending in a few weeks and I’m still waiting on those doors to open!

While I was sulking last week, I asked God, “What am I doing wrong?” I explained that despite much opposition, I’d remained consistent and clear. The only thing that had changed was my motivation.

And that’s when I realized the problem.

I’d remained obedient, but somewhere along the way I’d stopped doing it with a glad heart. I was delivering excellent quality, but I’d stopped being grateful for being able to serve. I’d never felt more purposeful, but I’d forgotten that it was a privilege to be chosen by God.

So dear Satan, my “Yes” to God still stands. There’s no amount of discouragement that could convince me to stop pursuing purpose. The harvest may not come as I’d planned or appear as I’d dreamed, but I know that as I continue to water what’s been planted, God will give the increase. Whether I’m waiting for The Retreat: For Married and Engaged Women to become an annual sold out affair or for The Religious Detox to become a common practice in Christianity, it's just a matter of time…